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Mom is isolating.

I've asked every day to visit daddy. Every day, mom says it isn't a good day. I don't want to upset her already - well, upset. Finally today (yesterday now) she said I needed to wait until he got stronger.

I flat out told her he wasn't going to get stronger.

So she said SHE needed to get stronger.

It's clear I upset her even more. But at this point I think everyone and everything upset her.

Sometimes I think she brought him home to die. I believe that's actually going to happen, I just don't think SHE realizes it.

Or maybe she does. She's said for a long time they're ready to go. She said it more often when covid hit.

Hell. I don't know.

xora