I want to talk about what's going on with D and myself. D has been in senior living c suites for years. Since 2018, he's had different people want him to start a management company. He's put in untold hours, days, weeks, months, and has been screwed (for lack of a better word) every time. He took the job in Salt Lake City, only to have the rug pulled out from under him. We've managed to squeak by with savings and with the help of family and framily. One thing after another - illness, cars dying, family dying, kids in college, and now my dad. In this blog I haven't even yet touched on the thin thread that is my relationship with my own mother that's about to break. The only thing I know, that I'm beyond grateful for, is my relationship with D. All these things would break up a relationship - hell, any one of these things would. But we are stronger and more committed than ever. It's almost magical. When I have a bad day, he's the tough one. Calm washe...
Called mom this morning to ask if I could come out to sit with daddy while the air conditioner repair person was there. She seemed... almost cheerful when she answered. Didn't even pretend she didn't know who I was. Yep. She does that. Turns out they were able to get someone to come out last night. They put a band-aid on it and it's working. She was also thrilled she was able to figure out how to have groceries delivered from Walmart at 4:00 this morning. For her that's a big win! I figured today would be a good day for me to see daddy - it's been a whole week today. I got a maybe! She came up with a couple of excuses, but a maybe isn't a no 🤞🏼 xora
The emotional manifests the physical. Several times a day I catch my shoulders up to my (hate the word literally, but here it is). And actually D points it out. We have to bend, then shift. Bend, so we don't break when the shit hits the fan, natch. But then we have to shift to be able to clean up the fan. (Sorry for the crappy analogy.) I've been trying to put this into practice for a long time and I still struggle especially now. Who am I kidding. I'm a mess. Reflecting this morning I know I can't do anyone any good if I'm a mess. So what can I do differently? It's a day already 🤦🏻♀️
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