The emotional manifests the physical. Several times a day I catch my shoulders up to my (hate the word literally, but here it is). And actually D points it out. We have to bend, then shift. Bend, so we don't break when the shit hits the fan, natch. But then we have to shift to be able to clean up the fan. (Sorry for the crappy analogy.) I've been trying to put this into practice for a long time and I still struggle especially now. Who am I kidding. I'm a mess. Reflecting this morning I know I can't do anyone any good if I'm a mess. So what can I do differently? It's a day already 🤦🏻♀️
Mom is isolating. I've asked every day to visit daddy. Every day, mom says it isn't a good day. I don't want to upset her already - well, upset. Finally today (yesterday now) she said I needed to wait until he got stronger. I flat out told her he wasn't going to get stronger. So she said SHE needed to get stronger. It's clear I upset her even more. But at this point I think everyone and everything upset her. Sometimes I think she brought him home to die. I believe that's actually going to happen, I just don't think SHE realizes it. Or maybe she does. She's said for a long time they're ready to go. She said it more often when covid hit. Hell. I don't know. xora
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